within lu, without lu

i have 3 older sisters (youngest —> nat, lili, and liz <—- oldest)

5 years ago liz had twin girls and just yesterday nat had her first child.

i had been feeling guilty because i can say im substantially more excited about nat’s childbearing than i was about my sister liz’s.

i didn’t know what to chalk it up to, i’d like to think i love all of my sisters equally. but my sentiments seemed to suggest the exact opposite.

however, yesterday, in conversation, it was suggested that this was most likely due to the difference in age. i mean, 5 years ago, i was only 16 and just didn’t give too much of a shit about babies, etc. though i did take care of my twin nieces hardcore for the first year or so of their life cause i was living in an apt. with my sister liz….(im gunna make a killer dad [and thats not something im afraid to brag about])

long story short, im very glad that i don’t feel guilty anymore.

nelson: do you want anything, nat?
nat: yeah, im pretty hungry, actually.
me: your stomach must feel pretty empty.

ZING.

(only made that joke after making sure she didn’t have post-partem depression, though in retrospect im not sure exactly how long that takes to kick in)